Living Like We’re Strangers

Long distance living in one space,
Mutually joined unknown existence,
Walls painted in unspoken words,
Hair brush ends airbrushed convos,
Love buried below a seen surface,
Both driven, but more driven apart,
Moments spent in single thoughts,
Together a figment of the familiar,
Dimly lit amorous warmth in ice,
Streams of laughter trickle slowly,

An obituary penned in the pensive,
Floating figures contesting a bout,
Simplicity swamped by the obtuse,
Where ends a long trainless tunnel?
Wrecked by blinding outgoing light,
The clock shows there was a time,
Past pastimes for the peaceful pair,
We stood time until time stood still,
Shadowed love packed, ready to go,
Living like we’re strangers together.

Rodney S. O. Campbell ©

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What Still Remains

He sits in melancholy and rum,
Drifting into a hollow memory,
Cobwebs knotted into thought,
Shrill echoes of infant rebellion,
Snake risen routes climbed daily,
Weighted eerie stillness remains,

Patterned lines on a pained face,
Stained panes shattered in glass,
Nature aged pavements erased,
Withered and weathered walls,
All now fallen down like Dumpty,
Buried bitter shadows remains,

Once upon a spot for eyes of envy,
Palatial fell off a pedestal of pride,
Scattered bottles play companion,
Another day drowned by yesteryear,
Only stark steps to his house exist,
Sad remnants of what still remains.

Rodney S. O. Campbell ©

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I Never Knew…

I never knew I could be your fool,
I never knew you could be so cruel,
I never knew I could fall in the pool,
Of love,
I never knew I could be so crushed,
I never knew you could be so rough,
I never knew i would miss so much,
Of love,

I never knew the reasons,
Why you had to leave,
You changed like the seasons,
I still can’t believe,
I never knew a love like this,
It still breaks my heart,
You left me without a kiss,
And its tearing me apart,

I never knew I could be your fool,
I never knew you could be so cruel,
I never knew I could fall in the pool,
Of love,
I never knew I could be so crushed,
I never knew you could be so rough,
I never knew i would miss so much,
Of love,

But if you don’t want me it’s fine,
I’ll get over you in time,
Maybe it’s gonna be hard,
To heal this heart of mine,
I hope one day you’ll see,
That I loved you perfectly,
Even though I never knew
The real side of you…

I never knew I could be your fool,
I never knew you could be so cruel,
I never knew I could fall in the pool,
Of love,
I never knew I could be so crushed,
I never knew you could be so rough,
I never knew i would miss so much,
Of love,

I never knew I loved you so much.

Rodney S. O. Campbell ©

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Merry Christmas Mum..

Hey Mum,
Haven’t said much this time of year,
In years..well, there’s a reason,
Depression or suppression I guess,
Well that’s been my excuse a while,
Yes, I know it’s not a good one,
But what else can I understand?
Anyway since we both know the truth,
I’ve decided to try another way,
To get back on the road to recovery,
I owe you, my family and myself,
To be all I can be the way I should,
Thanks for still being proud of me,
In my success and shortcomings,
With all your humility in a long life,
You’re still the greatest person ever,
Only my children can compare,
They’re so much like you said,
Genius minds, complex like me,
But forgiving, fair and loving,
I promised I’d try and be the best,
That’s been the hardest part yet,
It’s even harder at these times,
You know, the dates and timing,
But I’ve wallowed long enough,
And you deserve more in memory,
Seems like today I was a little boy,
Opening a million things bought,
Then a man buying those things,
Haven’t been that man in a while,
But I remember you always said,
Starting over what you’ve done before,
Is making sure it can be done right,
I’ve cried almost every day for years,
You’ve covered me as my angel,
I’ve made so many lives better,
You’ve smiled at me so many times,
I still think I should have gone first,
The world deserves you much more,
But since we agreed to disagree,
I’m still here and need to achieve,
I wish I had your resolve and will,
But I’m tougher than I think right?
You never raised a fool or fluke,
So again I’ll dust myself off,
Without falling flat on my face,
Head up, chest and life forward,
To do it right again this time,
I really miss you in every way,
And I never want to stop doing that,
Thanks for reading all I think,
Since you’ve always read my mind,
It’s so weird to be saying the obvious,
But it can never be said enough,
I love and miss you still today,
But we’re both gonna be just fine,
Gone, but you’ve never left me alone,
Merry Christmas Mum and thanks,
For always being…no matter what.
Your only son, Rods.

A Full Life Lived

If I placed my life on pages,
It would take stages and ages,
To read, relate, recall,
Because I’ve done it all,
But yet with no regret,
The ones I made upset,
All the joy I brought,
The thoughts I thought,
Things that sucked,
Chances I fucked,
Kill at will and still,
No pill to find a thrill,
Enemies many, friends few,
Biting on lots to chew,
Best Dad, worst Father,
Sometimes I would rather,
Confront the pain and die,
Than be the reason they cry,
If not me, who would they be?
Created all so perfectly,
Ups, downs, turnarounds,
A life in and out of bounds,
Not as weak as I believe,
Not as strong as I think,
Fire, smoke and ashes,
Another wave crashes,
I miss giving love,
As I stare above,
Clouded and shrouded,
My life has been crowded,
Helping the world,
Life twisted and curled,
A ball of cord unravelled,
Seen a world I’ve travelled,
Made millions smile,
Lost millions while,
Choices made,
Judas paid,
A star bigger than belief,
Where do I find relief,
From perfect imperfections,
Selections or rejections,
I fear nothing today but tomorrow,
Lend my heart, borrow sorrow,
From a weaker soul than I,
To help them stand and try,
To be another me and win,
In this game called real life,
Earning and learning the way,
Makes it easier to say,
I’m not a perfect man or near,
Not there, but swear I care,
Each time falling I rise,
To my surprise time flies,
Never standing still,
Trying again to get it right,
Fighting darkness to win light,
Sea shells help to soothe,
Rough seas sounding smooth,
What will be said on that day?
On this day, new day, anyway,
If, but, perhaps and maybe,
All of this has made me,
The imperfect man made,
To ride out the storm,
Regain the norm,
Balance the scales,
When all else fails,
Standing and landing on my feet,
In this land of bittersweet,
I’m still thankful and pray,
Another chance another day,
Doing the best a better way,
Taking a chance once more,
Not afraid to face the floor,
Pierce the skies and soar,
Miles to walk before I run,
Towards a beautiful setting sun,
Finishing at the start to restart,
I’ll try to live a full life lived…again.